Sunday, January 24, 2010

It's silly, but..

I get jealous when J plays with other children. Jealous of what, I'm not sure exactly. I think I'm jealous for Allison.

Tonight the neighbors came over and had dinner with us. It was a crazy chaotic night. The kids are pretty wild and were running around jumping on our furniture and being loud. I have a pounding headache now that probably isn't helped by the fact that I had two glasses of champagne with dinner. They have been gone about 20 minutes but I'm still totally tense now.

The neighbors have two kids, 5 and 18 months. The little one is a boy. J played with him on and off all night. They were high fiving, wrestling, tickling, you name it. I like that he is so good with kids- I really do. But I get so sad and jealous watching him enjoy someone else's children while Allison just watches TV and tunes the rest of us out for the most part. I also know J wants a son and he doesn't have one. That might be part of my sadness, too.

Allison does have her playful moments, but nothing like this. It probably shouldn't bother me, but it does. :(


  1. Aww, ((hugs)). It is totally natural to feel that way. Afterall, that is how figured your relationship would be between DH and DD.

    I hope you get good news soon.

  2. Lord, that is how *you* figured

    I am not awake. In fact, if I ever post something stupid or that doesn't make sense, chances are it is early in the morning, lol.

  3. Awww, I just want to reach through my computer and hug you! I also, just wanna pinch Allison's cute little cheeks! Love the new picture, she's such a doll!